I tried to think about what I'd be writing about; me, my life and as it says "everything in between." One part comedy, one part drama, one part satire, one part over analyzed bull shit. I came up with the working title of "Am I There Yet?" with the intentions of changing it, but as I began writing I realized how much it resonated with me, and hopefully you, my loyal followers.
I know what you're thinking, "Am I There Yet?", is this some sort of artsy, emo, Dashboard Confessional way of expressing yourself that I should be familiar with? Because it's totally not on my playlist... Who knows, maybe I can be their inspiration, but for the time being it's about me. My life is, and has been for as long as I can remember, one big countdown. I guess it all starts around high school. Counting down until senior year, counting down until college, counting down until mid terms, counting down until spring break, then as excited as you were to enter college, counting down until you can leave. Well guess what--my life isn't that much different now. As exciting as it was to begin a new graduate program, I'm one semester down, locked into school until I'm 24 and the new countdown is, welp, 1 semester down, 3 to go. My long distance relationship (we'll get into that later) has been a constant countdown--to holidays, to him coming here, to me gong there (5 weeks in case anyone is interested), to him getting out of the god damn Navy and us starting a real life together. One. Big. FAT. Countdown. Which led me to wonder, when does it stop? When am I finally... THERE. And more importantly, how will I know?
I get flashbacks of trudging down my steps on Monday mornings getting ready for school telling my parents how much I can't wait until it's Friday. I'll always remember what my Dad told me every single time I said this; "Don't wish your days away!" I got it, but he clearly didn't understand how important it was for me to get to the weekend so I could sit in my friend's basement and eat brownie mix, watch bad TV and occasionally split a 6 pack of Natty Light between three of us. Parents...
Now as I've gotten a little
To round this out I want to tell everyone thank you. I cannot believe the great feedback I've received thus far after what you may not believe was a gigantic step to even put this up last night.. I posted before going to bed, contemplated letting my boyfriend and a few other people read it before it went up for good, because after that there was no turning back. But I figured what the hell--I was so nervous last night I couldn't fall asleep (which may or may not have been the 2-3 Diet Cokes I had but let's be honest I'm pretty much immune to those by now). Anyways.. keep the feedback coming, hope you enjoying helping me figure out when we're finally "there."